Vertical Pursuit: Seasons

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Seasons with the Lord, oh hooray! It’s amazing to me that the Lord will take me through seasons with Him so quickly (by event or circumstance), and yet also so slowly (by time).

I am so thankful that the good Lord has continually decided to drop me off in a Season of Delight. This Season of Delight is my current residence and if it were up to me (which it hasn’t felt like it is) I’d stay here. I think that one of the most critical things I’ve learned is that this season is exactly that: a season. Ecclesiastes 3:1 basically nails the advisory stating, “There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven”(New American Standard). The Lord is good all the time and will continue to pull me through those dark, distant, and deserted places to drop me right back off at Delight.

Here is a story of the two seasons:

Recently, the Lord very clearly revealed that my life was changing and what He wanted me to do about it. I thought we had a great thing going on #delighting all day, but He seems to be obsessed with “giving me better”.

One day at church, we sang a lyric you may remember: “to You our hearts are open, nothing here is hidden” and as I sang, I heard Him say, “Hey, I need you to tell me what’s there in your heart.”

I was surprised when He pointed it out; I knew what He was talking about, but I thought that I had killed that hope. Instead, there it was – in the way back – locked up nice and tight. Because me and God were also working on other things at the time, I told Him we could talk about it later, hoping later would turn into never. But the Lord would have none of it. We finished what we were doing within a week and that’s when I knew this, “open heart, nothing hidden” thing was serious.

Welcome to the desert. God and I got into a fight for two days about it because I liked my life exactly how it was. He wanted me to admit to the hope that was there in my feeling-place, to rip out ALL of my heart and give it to Him. He wanted ALL of my heart and ALL of my hope. He said if I gave Him everything (which is all He wants, no big deal) He will be sure to take care of me and I won’t have to worry about a thing. He said, “I want to show you something” so I relent and respond, “Fine, whatever, do whatever You want. I don’t even care anymore.”

(But really, I’m also excited and trusting because I know this is going to be huge.)

These life changes are new and I didn’t know how they would effect me, but ever so gently the Lord reminded me: “Whose life is it?” My response was: “Ah yes, great point – not my life.”

So, life is good! I’m doing what I’m told and feeling great, the Lord is showering me with blessings and affirmations all the live-long day (hooray – delighting again!). Then Boom! The unexpected happens and things take a left.

Welcome back, Desert, you were missed.

My reasonable response: “Hey, God, remember all the affirmations!? Remember our talk about ‘what if something bad happens’!? Remember you told me to do this and be here!? Remember that I did not want to do this and You said to!? Remember!? Well, here I am – in this place now – what do you have to show me?”

Well, the Lord does remember and He likes to remind me of things too. He is so gracious like that. Turns out there is a lot to show me:

1. He wasted no time in giving me peace – I had done exactly what I was told.

2. He advised me that I am now armed with information I will need as I move forward in life; I would not have had it if I hadn’t been listening.

3. The Lord allowed me to walk through my experience with others who are going to be encouraged by it (I’ve found that He likes to do this).

4. Even though it isn’t what I thought He was telling me, it now makes sense. And that is a blessing.

5. He is obsessed with “giving me better”. He reminded me of all the times I thought He’d given me the best and then He gave me better. Always.

So, He drops me right back off at Delight. While I was still a Desert-drifter though, I was reading Psalms, which is the most amazing when I am being very emotional (which I wasn’t, of course).

The verse that really resonated with me was Psalms 27:13-14: “I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage. Yes, wait for the Lord.”


These songs have been a great encouragement to me:

In Over My Head – Jenn Johnson

Thy Will – Hillary Scott

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I am Heather. My heart’s desire is to align my life to the Lord’s will. He has given me a servant’s heart which works out in many different ways according to how He calls me to serve. I enjoy being reminded it’s His life – not mine.

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