“I am done, I quit. It’s too much, God.”
“All my vision, all my desires, all my sanity, all my pride, all I thought I worked for is gone. I don’t even know who I am, or if even I am, or what my place is.”
I found myself speaking these words at the end of 2016. It was probably what I said most of the year. But do you think God was shaken by that? Not at all.
The phone rang, just as I was crying out to Him and asking for wisdom and help, “Can you pray for me?” I heard someone asking through tears on the other end. “Of course!” I said, amazed at how everything went from despair to purpose and understanding. After we were finished praying, everything inside me melted and broke. All the stress, all the striving, all the pain: gone. God gently restored me back to His covering and reminded me that He loved me. And that, in and of myself, I can’t.
He showed me my pride and fear. That it is all about who He is and what He has for ME. Not my successes, not my assumed failures, not where I was or wasn’t. I needed to look at life through His eyes. He has a plan. He has a purpose.
Though life brings winds, waves, and storms-at the end of the day, what really matters gets done. I am so grateful for going through this. I needed to see myself in order to see my need of Him. I AM so much stronger through trials, and my faith is in Who is so much greater.
It is time for a change and renewing in my thinking. He then spoke and said, “2017 is the year of HOPE.” He is preparing every path for our future. he is using every thing we go through to build strength, character and perseverance (James 1:12-17). God wants to encourage our hearts. He wants to Re-fresh our spirits. He wants to Re-new our minds through His word and promises. We ARE His chosen generation, His Royal Priesthood, His holy people. His own special people, that we may proclaim Him to the darkness. He is OUR Rock, Comforter and Shield. Hallelujah!
Praising God for each of you Sisters in Christ. Trusting that this would be a year of hope, not because life will ever be perfect, but because we have a good God, who isn’t finished with us yet. Praying that the Lord refresh your spirits and renew your Vision and Hope in Him. He is our All in All.
We love our Lisa Hefner!
Lisa is a regular writer for the Authentic Grace blog. She speaks such truth from her heart as she lets her Father speak to her. Lisa is a wife and mother of 8 beautiful children and is a priceless member of the Grace Chapel family.