Jesus Himself is our Promised Land. Knowing Him is eternal life! And nearly every day, I find that God lays before me this choice: would I like to survive in the “wilderness” of life without His Presence… or would I like to RECOGNIZE MY NEED, make Him my Pearl of Great Price, and do whatever it takes — cancel whatever plans I need to cancel, lay down whatever priorities are greater than Him – and DO WHAT IT TAKES TO FIND HIM?
I’m tired. What do I need? More food? Still tired. Different food? Coffee? Tea? Hmm. I should clean my kitchen. It really needs me. Like REALLY. I don’t want to…. I feel kind of empty…tired. I could nap? But that doesn’t seem the thing. Don’t think this is physical tired…. I’m reminded of a line from a song, “Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord.” I sit on the couch. I’ll wait for Him. I turn on iTunes:
“You’re here. With the grace of the Savior. With the heart of the Father. You’re all we need. You’re here. With the hands of the Healer. With the power of the Spirit. You’re all we need… Jesus. Just the whisper of your name, you silence wind and waves. …You’re here. You’re the Provider. Everything I’ve needed, Jesus you supply…. Everything you breathe on, coming back to life! You are my strength, You are my anchor, You never fail. You are my hope, you will deliver, Immanuel…. You’re just a breath away. Jesus.” (“Mention of Your Name,” Brian and Jenn Johnson)
I remember Him. I choose Him (again). I give Him my stress, He gives me His rest. The kitchen. My weak body. He’s greater. He’s a higher prize, a greater reward, a more worthy goal, and He’s here. I savor just a taste of His glory, am lifted into a realm that is just a little bit bigger, more expansive, with more ‘room to breathe.’ He is Oxygen. He is Life. All else pales. I am comforted. Held. Immanuel: God with us. He is good. And I find myself when I find Him.
Song of Solomon:
On my bed by night I sought him whom my soul loves; I sought him, but found him not. 2 I will rise now and go about the city, in the streets and in the squares; I will seek him whom my soul loves. I sought him, but found him not. 3 The watchmen found me as they went about in the city. “Have you seen him whom my soul loves?” 4 Scarcely had I passed them when I found him whom my soul loves. I held him, and would not let him go…. (3:1-4)
As an apple tree among the trees of the forest, so is my beloved among the young men. With great delight I sat in his shadow, and his fruit was sweet to my taste. 4 He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love. 5 Sustain me with raisins; refresh me with apples, for I am sick with love. 6 His left hand is under my head, and his right hand embraces me!
7 I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem, by the gazelles or the does of the field, that you not stir up or awaken love until it pleases.
8 The voice of my beloved! Behold, he comes, leaping over the mountains, bounding over the hills. 9 My beloved is like a gazelle or a young stag. Behold, there he stands behind our wall, gazing through the windows, looking through the lattice. 10 My beloved speaks and says to me: “Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away, 11 for behold, the winter is past; the rain is over and gone. 12 The flowers appear on the earth, the time of singing has come, and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land. 13 The fig tree ripens its figs, and the vines are in blossom; they give forth fragrance. Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away. 14 O my dove, in the clefts of the rock, in the crannies of the cliff, let me see your face, let me hear your voice, for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely. (2:7-14)
If we are aware of it, our hearts are hungry for Him, like the bride in Song of Solomon. If we go on a journey to find Him, He will be found by us. For He, too, is “looking for us.” O, the growing glory, when the two of us collide.
“Who is that coming up from the wilderness, leaning on her beloved?”
Song of Songs 8:5
Amy Dresser enjoys studying the Bible and writing, as well as home schooling (and kissing) her 5 kids. She attended Wheaton College, where she met her husband John and earned a Masters in Biblical Exegesis. She lives for the coming of God’s Kingdom in our midst, and is fueled by the Holy Spirit — and a healthy daily dose (or three) of CHOCOLATE.